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Saturday, July 17, 2004

*horoscope..*

her horoscope for the day~
There is a fun loving boisterous energy to the day that should give you a great deal of power and self-confidence. You will be extremely effective in everything you put your hands to, CHERIE. Remember to love yourself and believe 100% in the things that you say and do. Generate passion from the heart that strikes with forceful love. No one will be able to respond with anything but love as well.

Posted at 12:59 am by XxdreamerxX
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*no comments...*

her day was...... great?
folkdance was SUPERB~! hEez.. but it wasn't enough... saw familiar faces in the crowd. heard familiar voices..took lots of pictures as well =) but mostly with "strangers" or 4b people.. haiz.... if only 2d'02 could come back for another group photo~ (._.) there were very cool costumes, even some cute couples~ she guess her class was the most enthu one of all.. almost everyone wore costumes! if is best dress class, they'll get it for sure~!! =P she thought her costume was weird though, duno.. juz feel that something was not right... he looked cute.. hEez.
sometimes.... she feels so guilty and everything.. leaving him alone. not talking to him much. dunoz.. but.... (.__________.)
juz read his blog.. her mood changed immediately... (._.) haiz.. she duno what to say now. don't want to say anything either...... nvm. n v m . . *no comments*
write more tomorrow~ she'll...

(._.)still loves him (.-.)

Posted at 12:01 am by XxdreamerxX
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Wednesday, July 14, 2004

*ifd preparation~*

hEez.. lessons were as usual, didn't absorb much during physics lessons though, felt herself dreaming away... haiz.. history was.... eRm.. nvm. she'll wait for the results fiz..
went to bugis after school.. went to look for the costumes... melissa n cheryl rent something, *psst.psst* top secret! yj managed to get a vest and hat.. haiz... sorry to say, but she was a lil pissed off with yj.. nvm. good for her then, so fast snatch the nice looking vest, didnt even give nh n her a chance at all... * @$!!%% * oopz. =X! actually, she regreted..... haiz.. shouldn't have told yj what she wanted to wear.. (._____.) n v m . .now... seems to be quite common le. . . . nvm!! my fault huh.. u can call it selfish or anything, she juz hate being the same with others! haiz... tupid attitude huh.. she knows that.... but she'll learn to accept the "truth".. (.__.)
after renting a hat.. (ps. veri veri nice de!! =P) went out looking for something. then nh n pm looking for autograph book anyway ma.. but nothing was found... haiz.

was really really very tired. so waited for the bus with pm.. it was already around 7.30pm, then saw jiehao n sylvester (cell grp de) at the bus-stop, then sort of had a talk with the cell group leader in the bus... bout ruxiang n huiling.. hMm... heard of stuff that she didnt know at fiz.. duno what to do bout them wor... haiz.

now...... no comments. no angry or anything.. but.... nvm. let her cool down fiz *one cannot b too selfish..* she'll try to calm her self down!!! aRh!!!!!!!

missing him.

Posted at 10:03 pm by XxdreamerxX
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Sunday, July 11, 2004

*nissi3~*

hMm.. nothing much happened? she guess so.
had cell and night life yesterday... was going to go back earlier to see her aunt who was going to give birth on monday, but since it was too late after night life, mum said it doesn't matter if she stayed for dinner there.. so had dinner with the rest of nissi3~ hMm... friends were starting to form.. not bad huh, juz the 2nd week there.
came home around 10+.. had people sending her home =X they say they would allow people to go back alone after dark~ =S hMm.. then watched tv, etc... the next thing i knew, i was asleep.

woke up early in the morning.. really didn't have enough sleep. had tuitions... forgotten to bring her hp out, so lonely without it.... *sObZ*

ches unblocked her, and asked her to too.. chatted a lil and all. think the grudge is over... hMm... it's better this way? dunoz.

missing dear now. haiz.. it's like what that card said... that tupid feeling coming back. (.___.)

*lubs him~*

Posted at 05:24 pm by XxdreamerxX
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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

*better.. =)*

hMm.. her day started off bad. really bad~ often alone there? then had this on and off flu... sneezing away, then had blocked nose, even ran out of tissue at one point wor.. haiz~ very uncomfortable, coz throat very sore as well.
today, an appearance of another pink bottle irritated her! tupid! still dare say wor, say she was "geak" by the sight of *that girl* finding it! good that she know her huh! haiz... but can't stop anyone anyway, but at least have the courtesy to not get the same one if u know the person behind U has it as well rite? also duno why she is getting so fed up over such lil stuff.. not worth it wasting my energy~! know there will be the appearances of a few more in the days to come (.____.) tUpId!!!! =X
anyway, it was better after sch? guess so.. only yj, lc, pm n her went to mac for lunch... stil eat mac even though she had sore throat wor. aiyo.. then bcoz they had 20 pieces of xtra nuggets, so played zhong shi mi ma to "get rid" of them~ hMm.. out of the 14 plays, i only got 1! hEez.. which means i only ate one nugget, luck changing for the good? *prays hard* then.... he came (^-^!!) never help them eat wor.. so bad! went to purchase sweets and all~
then went for the amc thingy~ was late as usual =X! she sort of sat with pm, but she ended up alone most of the time.. lc n yj kept asking her to connect tables with them, but she didnt. really wanted to move to the back with someone else, but.... haiz~ nvm.
then was trying out brain teasers with yj n pm in sch, even saw the IFD rehearsals starting.. haiz. missed the times~ then started discussing bout the IFD costumes.. hMm... then chat till very ON~! =PpP! don't want to wear too formal, but also don't want to just wear normal clothes.. dunoz!
long entry huh? (^-^) hEez..

[[ she is thinking of him now.. ]]
lubs him~

Posted at 07:25 pm by XxdreamerxX
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Tuesday, July 06, 2004

*depressed..?*

nothing much have been happening? perhaps so...
the begining part of the day was utterly horrible! haiz.. she juz felt so left out. so... she was often alone in her seat.. sometimes, there don't seem to be anyone in class who clicks with her anymore. feel so invisible at times~ there will always be a scenario where she could've cried if she dared to. but.... she will never do that in public.. at least try not to. someone(not.him) asked her, why was her face so black... eRm.. isn't the answer obvious? yea.... depressed.. sorriz, but she did try to smile, maybe he juz didn't manage to catch it...
it was a lil better after school.. the time when they were waiting for "lessons" to begin... but everything went back to normal soon after. (.______.) bad day? uh huh... totally.
that tupid feeling coming back again.. so near, yet so far~ haiz.... missing him (._.)

[ thinking of someone~ ]

Posted at 09:10 pm by XxdreamerxX
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Monday, July 05, 2004

*eRm..*

hMm.. her day was alright. watched spidey2 and all... but.. haiz. duno... kind of misses him though. duno why... even though there was the other 2 of them, she juz feels so left out (._.) hate that feeling. walked around causeway, then headed to lot1 to take neoprints~ hMm...
juz love this particular picture.. hAaz... =P! approach me if u wanna see the other 2 =X! see fiz~

hEez... cute?

anyway.. lub him~ can't wait for tomorrow to come =)! gonna see him in less than 12 hours!! (^-^#)

Posted at 09:33 pm by XxdreamerxX
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*dull....*

hM.. didn't get to use the computer yesterday... didn't really like her day ytd. it wasn't fantastic at all, juz dull and boring.. chinese lessons seems useless at that stage? bcoz he only talked bout orals and nothing else, then he practically ignore the presence of those who have taken the orals.. haiz.
was lazy to go back home after chinese, coz she was going to have maths at 3.15, so she went to mac to do history and english..... ALONE! haiz.. nh woke up late as usual... but, not much difference? duno.

then it finally came up to a stage when she didn't know what she was writing for the essay, mixed up WW1 and WW2, oMg~

so when to tuition teacher's hse earlier, as expected, she wasn't home yet.. so sat at the stairs and read rd, hMm..... only went in after she returned, 10-15mins later.. lessons was alright, think she finally finished integrations... think so.

then walked back home.. was already half dead spiritually... (>_<)

woke up in the morning feeling dull and sick. her sore throat is back, bring along it's buddy, the "FLU". gosh.... gonna catch the spidey2 today! =P with joan n nh~ hMm...

after yesterday, think the problem only comes from pm.. duno. if i juz "break off" with her, i may even lose more than 1 friend.. don't want to. (._____.)

anyway, thinking of him all the time.. missing him loads (._.)
dear.... u didn't need to tell me bout the religion thingy, bcoz i know.. but it all juz happens naturally the ba... i duno. coz i can't stop it if it is destined to happen eventually.... now.. still neutral ba.

[ love u.. ]

Posted at 09:54 am by XxdreamerxX
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Sunday, July 04, 2004

*day..*

had 'o' level mtl listening compre today. killer paper, at least for her. haiz.. xian calculated her marks for her according to what mrcheng said, 6m........ (.______.) horrible.
had brunch with xian, hj n mp in lot1.. then walked round lot1~ then went for hj's cell followed by service... hMm.. then finally seen all those people she always mention about. then saw many of those bbss gb girls there... =) then had dinner at some malay "restaurant"~ hMm.. got "zhen" for a few times by some of them.... =X gang up with hj somemore wor.. hAaz... actually it is o k ba..

[tinking of him~ lubs him..]

Posted at 01:59 am by XxdreamerxX
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Saturday, July 03, 2004

*it is always me.......*

eRm.. sorriz dear. was in a bad mood yesterday... (.__.) details? later ba.....

love U~

Posted at 07:36 am by XxdreamerxX
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